God's way is not often our own

It's always interesting how we think things should be done one way which is often very very different to how they take place. After spending huge amounts of time in prayer and spiritual warfare over a friend's life (that has consequently also meant regular spiritual attacks), it is actually someone else having a greater impact in her life. I honestly struggle with this... considerably. No one but God and I really know the challenges and difficulties and battles I have had to face for this friend not to mention the risks and sacrifices involved. My wicked flesh cries out that I should be the one helping her... me me ME! How hard it is to accept God's will when it doesn't match our own. Amazingly though, the other person who is impacting her, and I, have said we should start praying together for this friend. Maybe... just maybe God has a greater plan and the outcome will far exceed my expectations and the expectations of all involved...

Lord forgive me for my unbelief. You are all knowing and you know the end from the beginning. Help me to trust you bring about your purpose in the way that brings the greatest honour and glory to your wonderful name. Amen.

The developing insanity of a stay at home mum aged 24 and 3/4

This is my take on Adrian Plass's Sacred Diaries.....

Night one trying to get my boy to go through the night without a feed: Fail. Miserable fail. Rudely awoken at 12.30am from heavy sleep by crying child. Didn't know if I was Arthur or Martha. Fluffed around getting to child. Child howling. Attempted to settle child in bed for approximately 2 seconds. Picked child up (fail #1). Child relaxed a bit. Put child back in bed. Child starts howling even more than previously. Picked child up again (fail #2). Child distraught. Kicking and screaming. Fed child (fail #3). Put child back to bed. Child howling again. Picked child up again (fail #4). Child kicking and screaming again. Husband came in. Decided child will need to be moved to another room to save the neighbours hearing everything. Child calmed down. Cuddled child. Put child to bed. Sat in room to make sure child settled. Child settled. Back to bed. Can't sleep. Currently 2am.....